Heavy Equipment
Sunday, November 21st, 2004
9:30am - I am again feeling like crap, almost as bad as when I was in the hospital. I dunno. Maybe it's the meds, maybe it's just me. Whatever. I am almost on the verge of giving up.
Heidi spoke with my dad at some length yesterday. Dad is ready to take me in, for as long as necessary. He just bought a 5 acre chunk of land, a little hill, that has two trailers on it. One is occupied, the other is not. I can move into the empty one at any time. Also, if I want to bring the Lizard along, we can figure out how to get him enrolled in a school down there.
I doubt if the state of Florida would be more lenient toward epileptic mental patients when it comes to driving. Huh. Maybe they would be, considering how many old folk they driving around down there. Nah.
My brain and my body feel numb. Comfortably numb. "Hello. Is there anybody in there?? Just nod if you can hear me. Is there anyone home??" This used to be one of my all time favorite albums, The Wall. I listened to it some weeks back and burst into tears in a lot of spots. The bloody thing hit home so many times, it was frightening. So, now I won't listen to it again, 'cause I'm scared of it. Go figure.
Because of the numbness, I am struggling to make this post somewhat coherent. I am regularly missing letters, and sometimes whole words. It is kinda funky. Thank goodness for spell checkers. I have been doing a lot of sleeping lately, which I know is because of the meds. Shoot, every single one of those little bottles has at least three warning stickers about "may cause dizziness," "may make you drowsy," amd my all time favorite, "avoid operating heavy equipment." Yup. That's the story of my life. I cannot operate heavy equipment. That is a tragedy. It is a wrong in need of righting. How dare they take away my ability to operate heavy equipment!! that's just down right rude of them!! Well, to hell with them!! Hah!! The fact that I don't even know how to operate heavy equpment is no reason to for them to take away my right to do so!!
Ah, i'm getting goofy. I'm going upstairs to lay down. And dream.. Yes, I am dreaming again, and it feels great.
9:30am - I am again feeling like crap, almost as bad as when I was in the hospital. I dunno. Maybe it's the meds, maybe it's just me. Whatever. I am almost on the verge of giving up.
Heidi spoke with my dad at some length yesterday. Dad is ready to take me in, for as long as necessary. He just bought a 5 acre chunk of land, a little hill, that has two trailers on it. One is occupied, the other is not. I can move into the empty one at any time. Also, if I want to bring the Lizard along, we can figure out how to get him enrolled in a school down there.
I doubt if the state of Florida would be more lenient toward epileptic mental patients when it comes to driving. Huh. Maybe they would be, considering how many old folk they driving around down there. Nah.
My brain and my body feel numb. Comfortably numb. "Hello. Is there anybody in there?? Just nod if you can hear me. Is there anyone home??" This used to be one of my all time favorite albums, The Wall. I listened to it some weeks back and burst into tears in a lot of spots. The bloody thing hit home so many times, it was frightening. So, now I won't listen to it again, 'cause I'm scared of it. Go figure.
Because of the numbness, I am struggling to make this post somewhat coherent. I am regularly missing letters, and sometimes whole words. It is kinda funky. Thank goodness for spell checkers. I have been doing a lot of sleeping lately, which I know is because of the meds. Shoot, every single one of those little bottles has at least three warning stickers about "may cause dizziness," "may make you drowsy," amd my all time favorite, "avoid operating heavy equipment." Yup. That's the story of my life. I cannot operate heavy equipment. That is a tragedy. It is a wrong in need of righting. How dare they take away my ability to operate heavy equipment!! that's just down right rude of them!! Well, to hell with them!! Hah!! The fact that I don't even know how to operate heavy equpment is no reason to for them to take away my right to do so!!
Ah, i'm getting goofy. I'm going upstairs to lay down. And dream.. Yes, I am dreaming again, and it feels great.
posted by Cherrycat at 9:30 AM
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