Tomorrow

Monday, November 8th, 2004

5:50pm – Another day. I had a minor panic attack today, my first official day out of day care. It sucked. Big time. I had a list of things to do, which Heidi made me do, and I only managed to get five of them done, and two of those I cheated. I did, though, at Heidi’s request, take the five kayaks and all the paddles out to the shed. I neither enjoyed nor disliked the task. It was just something that had to be done, and I did it. I suppose that’s something. Tomorrow. After I drop the boys off at school I have promised myself that I will take a long walk in the park. I enjoyed that trail.

One of the things I did today was contact a gentleman I met at the S.T.A.R. program. We spoke for a bit, which felt pretty good. I asked what SA meetings he was attending and he told me that he goes to one of the ones I used to attend, before the Second Collapse. I have made up my mind to start attending these meetings again, starting tonight.

9:30pm - I made it to the SA meeting tonight. It was wonderful!! It was good to be able to hold myself accountable to a bunch of guys that are going through what I'm now going through. It was a relieving experience, if that makes sense. I look forward to the next meeting.