Future?

My mind is going a hundred miles an hour, and in every direction. I start to think of something, then it's gone, and I'm thinking about something else.

I am uncomfortable here. Physically and emotionally. Well, I'm emotionally uncomfortable everywhere, but that's not the point.

What am I going to do once I get better? I don't know what "better" means, really, but we'll use that word for lack of anything better. So, what am I going to do? Get a job? OK, doing what?

I feel like I'm running from something and it is catching up to me. I don't know what it is, nor why I am so afraid of it.