Psych
I realized tonight that my entire adult life I have been setting myself up for failure. Well, not exactly. Once I get proficient at something, i lose all interest. I allow myself to only get so good, then I move on.
I guess it's that way with relationships. I let people get only so close, then push them away.
Heidi says that I have the potential to be great, excel even, at anything I do. I don't, though. My sister agrees with Heidi. I know it's been said to me before.
I remember when I was I was in Alaska some Sargeant suggested I take some courses. He said saomething along the lines of, "You are a bright young man. This would be great for you." My disrespectful answer was, "I never said that!!" This happened 21 years ago. I hate being told how great I am, or can be.
In the past 20 years, I have had 15 different jobs in three different states. My first job after the airforce I stuck with for 9 years. Do the math. That's a lot of jobs.
The question is, "Why?" What am I hiding/running from?? What am I looking for??
I guess it's that way with relationships. I let people get only so close, then push them away.
Heidi says that I have the potential to be great, excel even, at anything I do. I don't, though. My sister agrees with Heidi. I know it's been said to me before.
I remember when I was I was in Alaska some Sargeant suggested I take some courses. He said saomething along the lines of, "You are a bright young man. This would be great for you." My disrespectful answer was, "I never said that!!" This happened 21 years ago. I hate being told how great I am, or can be.
In the past 20 years, I have had 15 different jobs in three different states. My first job after the airforce I stuck with for 9 years. Do the math. That's a lot of jobs.
The question is, "Why?" What am I hiding/running from?? What am I looking for??
posted by Cherrycat at 10:50 PM
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home