Catton II
Visited with Dr Catton today. It was our second meeting. He is both intrigued and frustrated by me. His first two sessions he uses for information gathering. From that he can make a determination whether or not to work with you, and what the possible problem may be. I have to have a third visit.
He is concerned about me in a couple of ways. First, he finds it curious that I have such vague memories of my early teens and almost no memories before I was twelve. He finds my attitude towards this "amnesia" even more interesting. It appears to him as though I have made peace with this missing past. I am very .... oooh, I can't remember how he put it!! Basically, there is a huge chunck of past that is missing and I am not bothered by it.
The only teacher I can remember from High School is Mrs Delbon. She taught speech. I have no idea why I remember her , but nobody else. I certainly don't remember any of my teachers from Puerto Rico. It's like everything before the accident in '79 is either gone or just was never there. I know there was stuff before '79 because I have seen photos. I just don't remember.
What happened in '79? Well, to the best of my recollection ... I was racing, lost it and crashed. That is the short version. The long(er) version is weirder. Again, I was racing. Tony Kneer (?) was in the car with me. We were buds. I honestly don't remember what led up to the race. I remember that shortly before we crashed ... I remember feeling disembodied and actually seeing myself and Tony as though I were sitting in the backseat of the car.
This is very difficult. I haven't visited these memories in a long time, and this is the second time today. I'm taking a break.
He is concerned about me in a couple of ways. First, he finds it curious that I have such vague memories of my early teens and almost no memories before I was twelve. He finds my attitude towards this "amnesia" even more interesting. It appears to him as though I have made peace with this missing past. I am very .... oooh, I can't remember how he put it!! Basically, there is a huge chunck of past that is missing and I am not bothered by it.
The only teacher I can remember from High School is Mrs Delbon. She taught speech. I have no idea why I remember her , but nobody else. I certainly don't remember any of my teachers from Puerto Rico. It's like everything before the accident in '79 is either gone or just was never there. I know there was stuff before '79 because I have seen photos. I just don't remember.
What happened in '79? Well, to the best of my recollection ... I was racing, lost it and crashed. That is the short version. The long(er) version is weirder. Again, I was racing. Tony Kneer (?) was in the car with me. We were buds. I honestly don't remember what led up to the race. I remember that shortly before we crashed ... I remember feeling disembodied and actually seeing myself and Tony as though I were sitting in the backseat of the car.
This is very difficult. I haven't visited these memories in a long time, and this is the second time today. I'm taking a break.
posted by Cherrycat at 8:25 PM
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