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Heidi visited. We had a great time, I thought. She brought me a bunch of mailings. Some stuff she wrote to the "group", a letter that Andrew F wrote to her and a letter Bob J wrote.
I was deeply touched by the words my friends shared with me and by the love they expressed. We grew up together. I was at Andrew's high school graduation, I was there when he graduated college, and I was his best man at his wedding. I was honored to be a part of his life. I wish I could remember what I said at his wedding, but I have never been able to recall.
Bob was always the big brother I looked up to. Everything Bob did was an adventure, and I so enjoyed being a part of that adventire. He and Andrew were the closest things I had to Heroes I have ever had. I tried, as often as I could, to get together with them. I even went to Germany just to spend a few days with Bob.
Yes, Bob did "abandon" me at the hotel after I couldn't handle all the hash, but I never faulted him for that. Heck, I barely even remember getting back to the room, let alone the factthat Bob wasn't there.
I do remember how angry and upset Bob got when I was leaving for Alaska. I know and understand why he said the things he said, but, again, I have never faulted him for that. It was a pretty emotional time, and I was touched by his emotion.
We were so young, and so full of life!! Every time we got together was an adventure. The concerts we went to. Wow!! We saw some great shows.
I rarely speak of Greg, though. Greg was also my friend. I remember the day Andrew called to tell me Greg had passed away. I heard the phone ring and I knew it was Andrew. I also knew why he had called. It was eerie. I have always regretted not visiting Greg and paying my respects. This is something I have to do this year. I believe it was December 15th, 1989. He was my friend.
I am both glad and embarrassed that my "dirty" little secret is out. I am and have been addicted to porn. I really don't think I would be capable of harming another human being, though, and regret that Heidi even implied that. I guess it's hard to see the forest for the trees.
I don't know when this started. A long time ago, certainly. When I was in Alaska, really, the only thing to do was to drink and go to the strip joints. Drinkingf with the guys was fun. Drinking with the guys while a bunch of half naked young women danced around was a lot more fun.
I was deeply touched by the words my friends shared with me and by the love they expressed. We grew up together. I was at Andrew's high school graduation, I was there when he graduated college, and I was his best man at his wedding. I was honored to be a part of his life. I wish I could remember what I said at his wedding, but I have never been able to recall.
Bob was always the big brother I looked up to. Everything Bob did was an adventure, and I so enjoyed being a part of that adventire. He and Andrew were the closest things I had to Heroes I have ever had. I tried, as often as I could, to get together with them. I even went to Germany just to spend a few days with Bob.
Yes, Bob did "abandon" me at the hotel after I couldn't handle all the hash, but I never faulted him for that. Heck, I barely even remember getting back to the room, let alone the factthat Bob wasn't there.
I do remember how angry and upset Bob got when I was leaving for Alaska. I know and understand why he said the things he said, but, again, I have never faulted him for that. It was a pretty emotional time, and I was touched by his emotion.
We were so young, and so full of life!! Every time we got together was an adventure. The concerts we went to. Wow!! We saw some great shows.
I rarely speak of Greg, though. Greg was also my friend. I remember the day Andrew called to tell me Greg had passed away. I heard the phone ring and I knew it was Andrew. I also knew why he had called. It was eerie. I have always regretted not visiting Greg and paying my respects. This is something I have to do this year. I believe it was December 15th, 1989. He was my friend.
I am both glad and embarrassed that my "dirty" little secret is out. I am and have been addicted to porn. I really don't think I would be capable of harming another human being, though, and regret that Heidi even implied that. I guess it's hard to see the forest for the trees.
I don't know when this started. A long time ago, certainly. When I was in Alaska, really, the only thing to do was to drink and go to the strip joints. Drinkingf with the guys was fun. Drinking with the guys while a bunch of half naked young women danced around was a lot more fun.
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