I am an experiment to them.

I slept better last night, but not well. They gave me something to help me sleep.

My social worker stopped by my table while I was eating breakfast to ask how I was doing, if I had improved any. No, I said, although I had slept a little better, thanks to whatever I was given. I have no idea if he said anything else cause I tuned him out. He is a waste of my time.

I am an experiment to them. Let's try this med today. Hmm. Let's try this other thing today. get the drift? I wanted to be shut down, rebooted. No joy.

Peggy will not be here today. I made promises to her. I promised not to harm myself. I promised to try to be more sociable. Both of those are out the window.