Outpatient

Well, I started the outpatient program today. So far, it sucks.

I met with another shrink who is going strictly by the other shrinks diagnosis. Yeah, the shakes and the mercurial moods could be because of the meds. Here's a script for another med. Hopedfully Dr Catton will actually listen.

Heidi and I are putting a lot of faith in this Dr Catton. Maybe I am Bi-Polar. I just hope Dr Catton at least listens.

I blew up at Heidi this morning for no particular reason. That's how I've been since I got out of the hospital. I'm OK, then I'm not. It's like hitting a switch. And then back again. At least she got me a good lunch. Thanks, Toots!!

I don't know how long I'm going to last here. It's all group therapy, which I hate. I don't know specifically what it is ... no. I hate it because it is really easy for me to pretend. I can't be honest. I have been trying really hard to be honest with Heidi. It is difficult because I don't really know what to say.