Lizards

Wow. What a crappy, great day. Heidi and the Lizard came to visit which was a fantastic surprise. The Lizard is looking good, and got quite goofy with me. That was just fine with me!

Heidi came up with a plan, which was cool. The plan was pink, though, and I have to work on that. It is a pretty good plan, even if it is pink. Here are some of the details:

JC has to clean up the mess he made at PSMT. He then has to take the NCBTMB exam. He also needs to do pet massage training. Hey, this is alot of stuff!! he has to enroll in one other course, not yet specified. Therapy and meds per shrinks instructions. Attend SA/SLA meetings at least 2x per month. Lastly, 1 hour of exercise (at least!) 4 days per week. Wow.

This is a lot. I am willing, yes, but I am not ready to leave this place. I know it is an unfounded fear, but I am actually afraid I may hurt someone besides myself. I'm fair game, though. I did promise nurse Peggy, again, that I would be safe in here.

I also don't believe my meds are working as well as they did initially. Around mid-day the anxiety begins to build. By late afternoon/early evening, I'm literally boinging along. It is exhausting!! I did get some Ativan, and that seems to have taken the edge off of my mania. I can still feel it, but I can keep it under control. Gotta talk to the shrink about that.